There are times when your tears are drown inside and that you have the brightest smile on your face every minute of your life. I see all around me, love is spreading everywhere, I smiled. Feeling so much relieved to live in this harmonious city, then when I walked all the way between those tall buildings, did I see myself correctly in the reflection of the big luxurious glasses of those gigantic entrances? Perfectly iron office-wore woman, with blonde hair and light make up, holding a black file containing certificates with a sad face. I walked again into the elevator, I was alone, the lift closes its door. Cold feet. I see the lonely me inside the reflecting elevator walls. Pity.

          I, again, asked myself, why do I do this again? It makes me scared, nervous, nauseous and lonely. It's not me. Seems so hard to cover up all those feelings, I fixed my fringe to look natural. Stupid. I'm missing the warmth of life, not gonna feel it anymore in this concrite jungle. A person that I could truly rely on seems no where to be found. Please. I am in need of someone, is what I keep telling my heart, hopelessly hoping for GOD to listen. I do keep the thoughts in the low ground, of course. Sometimes, when you're hoping higher, you'll fall harder.

          Keep on walking through this city, looking carefully for someone who would look back at me, but there is none. People keeps telling me, when somebody's watching, one will never notices it. How desperately I am in need of patience? I could have no wait any longer, I just need somebody. If only I knew that life would turn out like this, I might as well drown myself inside of the tears that I've been keeping inside of me a long time ago. It gets colder, it gets wetter, it gets weaker, I am not strong enough. This task is not for me, but I was the one.

          I need what I have always needed, so tell me, why ohh why not me?